Almas,
Only a few days back , I had asked my colleague Sanjivani to upload parts of my old handwritten diary on my web site
Then casually going through , I found following noting :
( partially translated from Gujarati )
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21 Nov 1953 / Sunday / 12 :10 am
Despite many attempts, I am irregular in writing this diary
I feel lazy one I start feeling sleepy
Last night I slept well. May be because I was very tired
But , in between , there were 2 / 3 nights which were terrible
Just could not get to sleep
I the period between the states of sleep and awakeness , I was experiencing a very
Strange condition !
On top of that, I used to experience some nightmarish dreams !
Dreams of deaths of many nears and dears ( relatives – acquaintances )!
“ Ati-Sneh , Paapshanki “ God knows !
I even tried to carry out some self psycho-analysis
May be , partially , that could be the truth
I even thought of writing down those dreams but I cannot remember the details
Has Freud written anything in this regard ?
Does sub-conscious mind also harbor some secret feeling of revenge ?
Thought this might help you to figure out a better treatment for me
Of course , to get a deeper understanding of my psyche ( as it had developed 66 years ago, ) you may need to go through many more pages at :
http://hcpdiary.blogspot.com/
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